Monday, May 30, 2011

Takde mood nak letak tajuk!

Boleh tak tajuk cam gitu?

Pagi tadi liat rasa nk bangun. Kalau lah hari ini hari cuti, eh.. arini cuti sekolah dah bermula! Syoknya jadi budak sekolah. Masa ini lah baru rasa nak balik ke alam remaja belum akil baligh sebab dapat tido nyenyak bila tiba cuti sekolah.

Maka, jalan sangat lah lapang dan tiada lagi kereta-kereta kiasu, yang dipandu oleh ibu bapa tergesa-gesa pecut dengan laju kerana nak hantar anak-anak ke sekolah agar tidak terlewat. Jangan laju sangat, ingat keselamatan. Leganya tengok jalan sangat tenang, dan ibu bapa boleh tersenyum lega sebab tidak perlu pecut laju untuk hantar anak ke sekolah.

Hari ini, tidak seceria anak-anak yang tido sebab cuti sekolah dah bermula, tidak perlu bangun pagi-pagi nak ke sekolah. Hari ku dicemar oleh Jabatan yang dipertanggungjawabkan untuk membina karier pekerja dan menjaga kebajikan pekerja dan mewakili suara-suara dan pendapat pekerja kepada pihak pengurusan.Ooh..sangat kejam membinasakan hari ceria aku!

Last Friday, I was interviewed for a promotion. In my company, once you have completed your Degree, Master or PhD, you will go through interview process. The idea is ....just for a formality, I guess! Well, indeed it was something big in my life after being a Secretary for about more than 7 years in this well-known company, I might say. It was went well, I hope and it took about 20 minutes, as what my colleague said after I walked out from the room. As a few colleagues were waiting for the their turn. Alhamdulilah, I can answer their tough questions well, I hope so.

After completing 5 year study, with the result that I am proud of, I am more than happy to know the result this morning.


Yes, I am promoted but I will not be transferred to other department as requested, for another 5months. 1st, it was a good news, Alhamdulilah. 2ndly, WTH!!! All because of they dont want to find the replacement for only 5 months. And maybe the criteria they are looking for will be the problem to suit my dear Boss! Hey, its only 5 months. What a big deal! Ko keje je lah! Next year maybe ada lah rezeki tu...orang lain maybe lagi tak best nasibnya. Or maybe I have to wait for another 7 years perhaps. Apa sebenarnya peranan Jabatan tersebut yea? What about yang baru keja sebulan dua tu dah terus menerus mendaki tangga jawatan tinggi ye? Dia ada cangkir emas ke?


Next year I am 34. I am not young, unless I have the time machine! I have to compete with others that much younger than me to deal in this corporate world. Now, I wish I dont have to work. I wish aku and laki aku ada berjuta-juta duit dalam bank... I wish I dont have to deal with those people yang pentingkan diri sendiri saja. 


You like it or not.... it is not you who make the decision. Otherwise, you can update your resume and you can send it to other company or any jobsearch agency and try your luck with them! Or, buka meja jual nasi lemak dan kuih-muih, itu pun kalau sedap, kalau tak sedap, camner nak ada customer!


I have no guts to step out to somewhere that you are not certain. Uncertainty is worrying. Yes, this is my comfort zone, I am reluctant to start from A at a new company, and of course at this age, tahap kelembapan pasti terserlah. hey, I am not young anymore the number is increasing! Now I wish aku & laki aku ada duit berjuta dalam bank. Tu namanya berangan! Nak senang, bukan senang....


Kesimpulannya, sama ada suka atau tidak, terima! Nasib baik ada kerja dan gaji. Orang lain terpaksa membanting tulang, kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang. Tapi, asalkan rezeki halal. At this age, honestly, dah malas nak fikir. All i wanted to do is to have more babies....ehhhh... lain topik ni.


To put aside my upset, unhappy and painful feelings is not easy. Have to fokus benda lain, such as, fokus mendidik Danisha, besarkan dia jadi anak yang solehah. Not all things happen as we planned. Bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.

*** ini adalah luahan semata-mata...tak baca pun takpe..tak kecil hati!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

salam ayu sabar jalah kan - that what we call stupid organization excuses it is not only in yr company it happens in mine as well - so biasanya yang bertegas saja will get it - 2 things, you can defend yourself or what you believe is yours and what you think you deserve - say it out loud and then berserah or you can just ignore them and go elsewhere - rezeki bukan pada mereka bukan dari mereka but dari Allah - so go anyway else, yes it tough but why not if you can :) -
anyway i pray that you be a successful PB busineswoman so that you can resign 24 hours :) padan muka they all then they wwait 5 months to find your replacement terkangkang kangkang :)

ermayum

CiKaYu said...

erma...tq for ur support and understanding. am really grateful. moga dikurniakan rahmat and keredhaan oleh Allah utk you sekeluarga. amin.

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