Dia dah mula dah.....dia dah start dah....

PANIK menyerang.......jangan ko coba-coba mendekati diriku ini. Mid-term exam is just around the corner. This semester I managed to register only 2 subjects je. Tak larat nokss nak cover lagi 3 subjects. Jenuh. Ni pun dah bernafas tercungap-cungap nak kejar dateline submit assignment dan study for the mid-term, alhamdulilah cover 1 subject je utk mid-term. Financial Management II. Aduhai, dah lah takde background accounts, memang saya bengap sikit kalau nampak figure. Memang boleh huru hara paler otak. Dari stabil, terus leh bengong kalau bab pengiraan.......tu arra...masa kecik-kecik tak nak belajar sungguh-sungguh, la ni baru nak meraung...tak dapek lerrrrrr nak nolong....sapa yang terror accounts, tolong saya sini.




Well, going back to school, raising children and having to cope with our 9-5 job its really challenging. Plus, the watsoever million of challenges that we have to face it, handle it, take it everyday just enough to wreck our sense and sensibility. Life must goes on.....love it, take it or leave it. Padan muka ko Cikayu!!!



This year, insya'allah boleh complete my degree. Tinggal 1 semester je, in December. I hope I can do well. Thank you ALLAH for give me the strenght to move on and to fight all the obstacle along my journey to grab the success and to achive what I'm aim for.
My family, especially my dearly hubby, thank you for always be there for me, thank you for stick on the chair to listen my complaint for not being efficiently to complete my assignment when it's all becouse of my MALAS!!

Kembali ke arena...

Its has been almost a month since my last entry.....where am I? At home and anyway that I'd have been looking for a peace and calm place. Ada exam last week for Sem Januari 2010 and alhamdullilah its over. My last paper was on Friday the 13th eh takde lah...suka sebut kalau sebut Friday. Actually it was on Friday, 23th. Habis je exam, terus cabut balik rumah, packing-packing, zassssssssss balik JB to fetch my girl back to my arm.

Memang everytime exam, not every semesters, occassionally, I'll send my girl to her nenek & atok. Tapi bukan nenek & atok pun yg jaga, but my brothers and sisters are willing to help and volunteer to look after her. Since she has niece and nephews yang boleh dia lenjan main sama-sama, borak sama-sama and gurau sama-sama sampai tak hengat langsung mama & baba dia yang kerinduan ni. For the few days, I rasa nk pengsan kerinduan, mana nak ngadap buku, mana nak ingat dia. But, at least I'm glad because she is well, taken care by my family and I can study peacefully without thinking kesiannye dia kurang attention from me. Dah lah abis masa seharian kat office pastu balik rumah, main2 kejap dgn dia tak sampai pun 2 jam......, then I've to lock myself inside the studyroom. Pastu dengar dia kat luar, ketuk2 pintu, with her sweet and cheeckly lil voice calling mama, nak asyuk (masuk)...mama nak asyuk.....oooo...sangat meruntun hati ok, rasa nak kuar je dari bilik pastu main2 dgn dia. Oleh itu, I, myself volunteer to send her to my mom's place. Jauh lak tu, JB. 4 jam driving semata-mata nak hantar dia ke JB. Berbaloi ke? Kalau nak pikirkan apa2 yang akan terjadi during our journey rasa cam tak berbaloi kan. Nauzubillah. Tapi mak kata, kalau niat kita baik, suci, murni ALLAH akan sentiasa tolong, dengan syarat berdoa lah banyak2. Amin.

Ada 2 tujuan saya hantar dia ke JB. Remember my posting regarding her speech development......Danisha lambat sikit cakap....dah macam2 kami buat so final resort, both of us decided to send her to my mom's place. Kat sana my niece and nephews ada. At least ada kawan...mana tau boleh ajar dia cakap.......at least ada lah sikit vocabs yang buat kami bangga as a parents to hear from her kan....So, alhamdulilah walaupun tak fasih, bile kami balik last Friday, suddenly she said to me, MAMA instead of UMI......rasa cam nak nangis ok......terus kami 3 beranak tak tido borak2 atas katil sampai kul 2am kot. (sampai dari KL kul 12.30am)

Danisha dah boleh sebut nama-nama dlm my family, calling her nenek nenek, instead of atok, bagi words yg susah cam affordability pun dia boleh sebut with pelat lah of course dengar sikit-sikit cam bunyi sama...ni hubbynyer keje lah..tetiba nak bagi perkataan susah terus kan. kesian dia.....

Dan yang lagi lah kesian............dia tak nak balik KL. Eventhough, dia nak ikut kami balik, tapi mungkin dia rasa berat hati nak balik KL. Kesian dia, dan saya pun rasa kesian. Bukan dia takde kawan disini, infact, her nanny's children lagi lah kecik2 gak not really kecik lah tapi dah sekolah, sama baya juga dgn my nephews and niece. Cuma maybe bile dgn family members tu lain sikit kot environment kan. I wish I could turn back the clock, accept job in JB and stay close to my family. What to do, my rezeki ALLAh dah tuliskan kan KL. Redha je lah. Tapi my hubby ada hint2 nk cari rumah kat JB, yang itu I tell more later.

Kesimpulannya, now, my girl is back to our arms again. I feel glad and cant wait to see weekend for our exciting activities. wanna bring her to aquaria and buy her new book.......

Mata tak tahan......

pagi tadi bangun jam 3.45 am, iye PAGI.....sebab 'alarm clock' saya kejut nak minta susu. danisha ialah alarm clock saya sejak menjak ini. bangun minta susu, jadi saya pun akan bangun buat susu pastu duk mengadap buku. weekend ni mak exam mid-term dek non. takut. 3 subject nk cover. this year is my final year. insya;allah finish in september. final semester. ingat nak buat lumpsum bulan 5, tapi takut drop lak pointer mak yg cukup-cukup sikit nak lepas kan dean list. mampu ka?? should reward myself after this.....sape nak bagi reward kat i? diri sendiri lah, tapi sayang, andai u baca entry ni, please refer to my dream handbag tu.......

pagi ni mengantuk tersangat....kalau lah boleh letak lidi kat eyelid ni....lama dah ku buat.. (sib baik boss tarak, gi obersea)