She is 4!

How time flies....today she's four years old and she's growing so fast. But she's still my baby, suka treat her like 1 year old baby. Marah dia kalau panggil baby. I'm not baby lah mama, saya dah besar! Tanya dia nak hadiah apa, hadiah paling mahal dia minta, nak pergi Paris. Since I came back from Paris trip last year, especially bila tengok gambar dan kat TLC channel, ada saje travelogue or documentary show Eiffel Tower, minta pergi Paris. Kalau lah Paris tu kat Parit Raja or Paris Buntar nak, dah lama mama & baba bring you there. Insya'allah, when times has come, you will be there darling. Insya'allah, pray to Allah yea nak, insya'allah. Amin.


Danisha, pesan mama buat kamu. Jadi lah anak yang baik hati, penyayang, pelembut hati, anak yang solehah, jagalah solat, sentiasa doakan mama & baba. Bersabar dalam apa juga keadaan yang menimpa. Mama, tahu Danisha tak akan faham sekarang. Later, bila Danisha dah besar dan baca pesanan Mama ini, Danisha akan faham. Mama & Baba sentiasa ada di sisi Danisha dan doa kami ada selalu dengan Danisha. Please bear in mind, our priceless love to you will always with you in no matter what. Semoga Danisha dijodohkan dengan insan yang beriman, bertanggungjawab, pengasih & penyayang. 








I think my wishes is too much for her at this age to understand, but, believe me, this my prayer for her. I wish and pray to Allah to granted me another child in our family, but, I guess Allah has a bigger plan for us in the future. Insya'allah.

I love you sayang...









Proudly showing to us her house and car.
With colourful clouds.

Our recent trip to Petrosains last week. She's so excited. Tapi kiteorg yg letih, besar juga Petrosains ni. But really, very good place for kids development and education to us, indeed.  Thumbs up Petronas!

See ya'all later!

What is you therapy?

*pic from google*

Therapy saya : SHOPPING & TRAVELLING

Sangat memerlukan pada ketika ini!

What is an emotionally unstable person?

Tetiba meng'google' hal ini, sebab borak-borak dgn opismate, tetiba terkeluar lah topic ini.... Borak pasal hal-hal 'meroyan' isteri menguruskan hal rumahtangga.. tergerak ati nak google benda ni. Tapi ini yang keluar... Lately ni mmg rasa emo je tak tentu pasal, nak kata kawan baik dtg, dah balik punnn... ni baki-baki hormone yg tak stabil tinggal kot!, suami, seram tak?

Emotionally Unstable (Borderline) Personality Disorder is a condition characterized by impulsive actions, rapidly shifting moods, and chaotic relationships. The individual usually goes from one emotional crisis to another. Often there is dependency, separation anxiety, unstable self-image, chronic feelings of emptiness, and threats of self-harm (suicide or self-mutilation). This disorder is only diagnosed when these behaviors become persistent and very disabling/distressing.


Read more: http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_an_emotionally_unstable_person#ixzz1wWYPgdhI

Danisha oh Danisha

Last weekend patutnya, Danisha ada sports day kat sekolah dia. Tapi, dia kena viral fever since Thursday. Balik dari rehearsal hari Rabu. Petang hubby amek dari nursery, badan dia dah panas sangat...terus pegi klinik. Doc prescribed for fever & flu, tapi tak subsides juga demam dia ni. Body temp fluctuated. Kejap panas, kejap tak.. Masuk hari ke-4, Sabtu, doc bagi referral letter to KPJ. On Sunday pegi KPJ. Tapi tak warded, check blood saje, confirm its viral fever tapi dah turun sikit.

Tapi, yang harunya bila nak ambil darah dia. Dia agak penakut sikit, so we wrapped her body cam baby berbendung, cuma tinggalkan tangan sebelah kiri je. Apa lagi lah menjerit-jerit nangis. Yang best tu dia jerit, 'Jangan ambil darah Icha'..... memang tergelak lah time tu. Nurse yang buat procedure tu pun tergelak. Lama pula tu, sebab 1st cucuk, tak de pula darah kuar, sikit je. Then cucuk lagi, masa tu lah dia dah jerit bila nampak darah keluar.

Sementara tunggu result roughly about 1 hour, duduk dekat cafe kejap. Layan dia tengok buku. Pujuk dia, berdegup-degup jantung dia. 

 Mengenang nasib, kena ambil darah. Tapi doc standby terus salur IV tu just in case dia kena warded tak payahlah cucuk semula. So less trauma kan. 

Boring duduk cafe KPJ, pegi Old Town di MetroPoint, had our lunch there. 

Alhamdulilah, balik hospital dan result dia ok, blood result shows mmg ada viral fever tapi dah turun. Thanx Darl for your love. He took 2 days leave for the sake of Danisha. So tomorrow will be my turn but only for 1 day as I got very important matters to do as my boss will leaving for oversea so to clear some matters before his leaving. Hish...geramnye. Nasib baik, my SIL boleh tolong tengokkan Danisha till next week. Nasib baik tengah cuti sekolah. Tapi, tak nak hantar Danisha ke nursery, buat masa sekarang ni. Tunggu dia full recover dulu.

Nama Danisha ada kat banner utk games isi air dalam botol, taken from the school's FB...huhhuhu. Tak dapatlah mama tengok Danisha masuk games ni. Satu lagi, ada show tarian dia participate. Huhuhu...mama pula yg emo. Anak rilex je. Yang penting sekarang dia dah sihat. Alhamdulilah. 

Penat

Sangat penat lately ni. I have been feel poorly through out the week. With those supplements to keep me moving seems doesnt work at all. Seems like someone or something has taken my whole +ve energy and exchange it with negative energy.

pic from google*

Bukan penat buat keje berat-berat pun. Rasa penat yang semacam. Faham tak? Do you get it what I mean?

Perasaan penat yang melibatkan dari semua aspek.

Bukan penat di tempat kerja. Belum mula kerja tapi dah rasa penat. Penat drive dari rumah ke ofis sebab traffic  jam dan perjalanan yang dekat seakan jauh. Penat gaduh dengan driver or motor yang suka himpit-himpit dan tak bagi signal.



Sampai ofis, penat layan kerenah orang. Sesiapa sahaja. By face to face or by phone. Penat cakap nak explain benda yang senang tapi jadi complicated.

Penat drive pula dari ofis balik rumah. Traffic jam. The situation same everyday.


Sampai rumah, lega dan syukur. Tapi masuk je rumah ada benda yang tak kena kat mata. Anak baru sorang. Penat dan sakit mata, tapi nak buat camner telan je lah. Penat pula nak bebel. Penat nak cakap benda yang sama hari-hari. Kalau bukan anak yang buat selerak, bapa anak. Kalau bebel, buat penat mulut dan diaorg pun tak suka nak dengar. Aduhai perasaan! Perasaan bila tenang masa solat & tidor.  Rasa tak nak bangun dari solat & tido je. Biarlah perasaan tu tenang seketika. Memang salute lah to mak dulu-dulu, anak ramai pun boleh handle lagi. Rumah kemas tersusun je... Kenapa sekarang tak boleh buat cam gitu? Perlu ke kena ada maid baru rumah tu elok? So, kita balik rumah, just concentrate pada keluarga, tak perlu amik peduli hal rumah or kain baju dah siap basuh or lipat or gosok. Sigh* Mak selalu marah, tak baik mengeluh, banyakkan zikir, berdoa agar dipermudahkan semua yang kita buat dengan ikhlas dan lapang dada. Mak, kalau lah saya boleh duduk dengan mak dan dengar segala ceritera mak, pesanan dan doa-doa yang mak selalu pesan. I wish I could.


Harini ini, lagi penat. Penat badan dan penat perasaan. Entah kenapa, handphone problem or batt gone kong! Last time when I checked on my hp, the batt stil ok.  Hubby's phone, tak tahulah pun tak bunyi alarm. I woke up at 7 am and on my normal days, I should  already on the road by that time. Apa lagi....... bertambah penat! But, luckily the traffic was not so bad, managed to reach office in 1 piece early. What the worst part is, when I switch on my hp, sms came in from Danisha's teacher saying that today no school because they're having a rehearsal session for Sports Day and they are required to wear sport attire. OMG! I look at the watch and its already 7.45am. I sent the sms to my husband as he managed Danisha every morning before going to work. Last night, as usual, check on her school bag, put normal attire after school for her including her pyjama.  Last thing I remember when I checked on my hp before I go to sleep, I did not received any sms from her teacher about the rehearsal. So the funny thing is, when hubby arrived at school he saw everyone with sport attire but not Danisha, so quickly, hubby change Danisha with her pyjamas pants with sunflower printed and school tshirt without sport shoes, just an Angry Bird slippers. How funny it could be? I dont want to visualize it. Ooo...i wish i had a wings and i could fly back and get her proper attire. As usual, my hubby will be in a calm situation with a calm intonation when i spoke to him about the sms, about the sports attire and everything. I already cried. I feel very guilty, I did not perform my duty commendably. He said he will deal with it later, he just need to be in the office first and will come back later to get everything for Danisha. Now I wish I am SAHM. I can imagine how an awkward she could be with a sunflower printed pants and Angry Bird slippers for sport rehearsal?? What could the teachers thinks of me??? Sluggish mother? No sense of alertness?

However, despite all the chaos, I should be grateful. More grateful.

Ya Allah. Ini baru sorang. Kalau 2-3 orang. Agaknya, sebab itu Allah belum takdirkan aku ada anak lagi. Doa ku tak henti-henti, kurniakan lah zuriat lagi buat kami sebagai penghibur dan peneman dan untuk mendoakan kami nanti, dan juga sebagai peneman kepada Danisha. Amin.

Bila dirancang tidak menjadi...

Salam Jumaat kepada semua. 


Syukur Alhamdulilah, masih disayangi Allah swt dapat menghirup udara di hari Jumaat. Masih lagi diberi peluang oleh Allah untuk meneruskan hidup di bumi-Nya. Syukur Alhamdulillah. 


Mak selalu pesan, setiap pagi lahirkan rasa kesyukuran dengan seikhlas-ikhlasnya. Kerana dengan perasaan syukur itu membawa kepada keikhlasan dalam setiap perkara. Insya'allah mak, saya tetap akan ingat dan pegang pesanan Mak.


Pernah tak rasa kecewa bile apa yang dirancang tak menjadi. Setelah berbulan-bulan merancang, tiba masa tak menjadi. Yup, tengah rasa kecewa ni. Yang dirancang, yang dihajat, yang diingini - tak dapat. Senang cita, memang tak jadi lah. Sigh*. Mengeluh pun tak guna. In order to save on air ticket, we have to purchase in advance, we're talking about a months advance..... bukan sebulan dua, or selang seminggu. Lebih 6 bulan. Beli last year, dan sepatutnya pergi next month. Akhirnya, duduk diam-diam lah tiket tu kat dalam inbox. Apa kan daya pandang sepi jelah tiket tu. 


The reason behind is hubby kena standby for his WORK. Ada alasan lain lagi...tapi tak tergamak nak cerita. Frust!


Makanya, berkecai lah segala program yang dirancang. Harapan nak menyopping kain baju, melawat factory outlet yang digembur-gemburkan, menikmati sentuhan tukang urut yang berkaliber, tidak dapat menikmati pemandangan kota yang sesak dengan udara yang tidak nyaman, tidak dapat lah menikmati teh kebanggaan orang tempatan yang dibungkus di dalam botol, tidak dapat lah menikmati keenakan ikan goreng gelama yang mengembang kepaknya.  


Bersabar, adalah hikmahnya itu. Yes, I keep telling this to my heart, mind and my soul. Bersyukur, kerana tidak dapat pergi. Statement pahit nak telan. I am not happy. Nak nangis ni! Huaaargghhhh! 

Lost and never found

Alhamdulilah, 4 May, my sis tied the knot with her 5 years lover that they had met through my sis's BFF, Wai and the reception held on the next day, 5 May and Alhamdulilah, all went well. Syukur. 

Majlis kahwin merupakan suasana yang cukup sibuk, sibuk bergambar, sibuk makan, sibuk berborak, sibuk berjumpa dgn saudara mara yang dah lama tak jumpa, bertanya khabar. I love wedding, the place that reunite the longggg lost family, friends even ex-girl & ex-boy. Hahahaha....dont you all agree with me. Anyway, apart from those happy moments, there're sad..sad..sad incident happened. I lost my earings. It was a gold earing that I just bought few weeks before we back to JB. I bought the earings from KT. Yes, I prefer to buy jewelery from KT instead of KL or JB. This is because of the design-so love all the designs, the uniqueness, upah tukang emas, harga emas dan owner kedai emas tu. Hahaha.....yes, I prefer to deal with the owner Melayu atau pekerja Melayu. Rasa lebih selesa. 

I'm so sad. Masa tgh taip entry ni pun rasa sedih, teringat-ingat. It was my fault. Really! and I really regret it. 

Mari kita menjejak sebelum kehilangan.... Saya tanggalkan sebab nak mandi dan letak atas dressing table. Kemudian, I had my make up, tukar baju....pakai tudung. Tergerak hati nk pakai tapi tak jadi sebab takut rasa tak selesa sepanjang hari. So, i put back on the table. My mistake, my fault...patut letak dalam bag or sembunyikan kat tempat-tempat yg org tak nampak. Dush!...Dush!...Dush! Sengal kan. Sangat sengal. Stupid! Aduhai... rasa sakit hati ni. Dah jadi bubur pun, nak kenang pun tak guna. Huwahuwahuwahuwahuwa!! Tak kisah lah berapa harganya pun, tapi saya sukakan bentuknya. Sangat-sangat classic sebab sama dengan earings my mom yang dia beli zaman dulu kala masa dia muda-muda. You all tau tak yang bentuk cam anggur tu, penuh dgn intan/batu zircon? Tau tak? Tak nak google nanti sakit hati.

Reaction from my husband and the whole families? = Semua marah! Huwahuwahuwaaaaaaa

Selalu dgr kes-kes org curi semasa majlis kahwin, mcm-mcm hilang... Oh lupa, bukan saja my earings yea. Duit juga ye. Org tu selongkar almari baju bilik saya. Sebab handbag saya simpan dalam almari. Tapi masa sedar-sedar hilang tu, tengok handbag dah kat bawah lantai. Wallet memang takde cash. So rasa ok lagi lah....tetiba ingat ada duit dlm sampul raya, dlm tu ada duit dlm RM80 rasanya. Lesap!. Tapi takpe, as long as benda lain yang lebih berharga tak hilang. Tapii...sepanjang my parents kawinkan 6 orang anak, ini lah first time happened. Big lesson to me and of course for the rest of my life I will remember this. 

Rasa nak pegi jumpa bomoh lah! Nak santau kan pencuri tu boleh tak? Geram!